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hiatus

2005-02-14T22:17:00.000-05:00

The new site launches March 6th, 2005, and I need to get busy. Meanwhile, read the archives, email me your site ideas & feedback, or just sit on your thumbs & keep lurking. When I come back, I'm coming back to:http://www.sagaciously.net...shhh...it's coming...3/6/05...I promise... ;-)UPDATE: the site went live March 6, 2005.

40 hours/week of ridiculousness

2005-02-11T10:03:00.000-05:00

So, it's performance evaluation & promotion time! That's right party-people - time for my project managers & leads to roll out the bullshyt carpet, and lay on another layer, to keep folks from walking out of the building when they announce which member of the brown-noser-of-the-month club got kicked upstairs this year. Whoopee!Seriously though - and fyi, it's really not the hormones talking

critical mass - the de-lurker edition.

2005-02-09T13:24:00.000-05:00

I need a self-employment strategy. As you should already well-know, I'm the single parent of a handicapped child. Along with the pressures of single motherhood, stresses of working for a Fortune 5, and general life pressures, I have the added stress of dealing with his disabilities. Add to that my living in a soon-to-be-gentrified-still-impoverished area, and the choices for daycare/

weekend update - 2/07/05

2005-02-07T13:20:00.000-05:00

the entire list is pretty much baconstraw - and makes about as much sense as a straw made of bacon Bakers Dozen c/o KB via ej. baconstraw with E:: the King of early morning Poo Jokes (who heretofore shall be referred to as the King of Poo) 6AM:: bootleg cell phone calls "Can you hear me now?" HELL NO!!! 7AM:: the King of Poo: "I sharted" 10AM:: Java & a steaming Heap with the King of Poo the

the 101 list update II

2005-02-06T20:42:00.000-05:00

I updated the 101 in 1001 and I'm learning some things about myself:: Not becoming an evil, vengeful bitch when I get pissed off is easier said than done. Even if it's in my best interests. I have excellent intentions. And my follow-thru (when it comes to treating MYSELF better that is) sucks. Nappy. Definitely. Period. I'm being too easily influenced by negative things in my life, and I'm

crabs in a barrel

2005-02-01T15:01:00.000-05:00

a Leroy-ism:: "If you put three black people in a room together, two of them will get together to talk about the third." Sidebar about the Leroy-isms: my daddy, although a H.S. dropout, could be rather bourgeois - hence my penchant for $500 Louis Vitton words - he would accept no less. So, he was full of comments related to Capitalism, classism, and navigating this inherently racist framework

weekend update 1/31/05 - the house jawn

2005-01-30T21:48:00.000-05:00

...isn't she the cutest? Bakers Dozen c/o KB via ej. Ice storm in Atlanta chills traffic, shuts down the airport, and clears the streets. Except for Leah (pic above) - she's been cleared to drive in the snow! And I really want my fellow Atliens to just stay home. Really. but my stubborn Buffalonian a$$ ventured out regardless... To a baby shower & a slumber party. Ah, to be young & fertile

weekend snow update

2005-01-29T20:30:00.000-05:00

I'm forgoing the normal update for this public service announcement. IT FRIGGIN SNOWED IN ATLANTA!!! Ok, you say - no biggie. Well, here's the thing. People in general, but southerners in particular, are ill-equipped to deal with ice & snow. I think there are only 3 actual snow plows in the entire state of Georgia. And while the Buffalonian in me can snicker (a lil) at most Georgians

the music meme

2005-01-25T18:23:00.000-05:00

thanks to TK for tagging me. And you, kind reader...You're NEXT!!! Random 10: "Meant to Be" - Kindred "Cold" - Crossfade "Superwoman" - Stevie Wonder "One Thing" - Amerie "Beyond" - Amel Larrieux "I Tried" - Talib Kweli ft. Mary J. Blige "Stay This Way" - Brand New Heavies "Moonstreams" - Grover Washington "A.D. 2000" - Erykah Badu "Ride" - Usher What is the total amount of music files on

weekend update << romantic update?

2005-01-24T14:20:00.001-05:00

The weekend was boring - more househunting, so no point in even going over that. However, I've been keeping this underwraps for a sec, but I have a romantic muse. Yes, a coupla other folks crawled out of the woodwork: "what?! you stopped dating?! I was gonna get at you, but _____". However, this guy is, different. Not different in a "yeah, all men are dogs, but this guy isn't because..." kind

spongebob is gay?

2005-01-21T16:03:00.000-05:00

This would be hilarious if it wasn't so damn scary. The conservative right is ranting about the "homosexual agenda" again, and apparently Spongebob is the target. Or should I say , the perpetrator: Focus on Family: "Dr. Dobson is concerned that these popular animated personalities are being exploited by an organization that's determined to promote the acceptance of homosexuality among our

my son

2005-01-21T01:29:00.000-05:00

I've hesitated to write about Hammy (not his real name), because frankly I doubted that I could do him justice. My son is so many things, that it's hard to even begin to describe him. He is pure, uncomplicated, unsullied and unadulterated joy. He's more intelligent than I ever imagined he'd be. His kisses are only slightly sweeter than his bear hugs, and he's affectionate with just about

the domain is mine!!!

2005-01-20T21:33:00.000-05:00

http://www.sagaciously.net So, what would you like to see there...? Your ideas, comments, designs, storyboards, illustrations, donations are welcomed, encouraged, solicited..etc...etc... ...and um, yeah - just when u thought my posts weren't already sparse enough, I bite off even more than I can chew...

the 101 list update

2005-01-20T21:10:00.000-05:00

Yeah...yeah...yeah. I said monthly, but I figured if I waited that long, y'all would lose interest. Hell, I almost did. So, the original 101 tasks list & explanation is here. I'm just hitting the highlights: #19. workout some kind of visitation schedule with Hammy's sperm donor. <- this is not going well. I opened the door, and not only is he not walking in, but his sorry a$$ asked me

MB & my "A" Game

2005-01-20T20:11:00.000-05:00

So, I know I've been kind of MIA lately. School restarted, and I have A's on my mind. Let me preface this by saying, I know I'm intelligent. I know I have developed decent study habits, and I know I have the capacity to truly excel in not just grad school, but Business School, and even Business School at a Nationally Ranked University. However (you knew this was coming) - the path my

weekend update 1/17/05

2005-01-16T21:17:00.000-05:00

the weekend update: you're getting it early, 'cause I'se tired... Bakers Dozen c/o KB via ej. spent 4+ hours stuck in Atlanta traffic. I could've driven to Florida instead... crashed and got 12+ hours of sleep... got my hair braided. why is it that stylists can't braid, and braiders cannot style? picked up some gear & accesories, and put the twinz on display for... Queen Mia's Birthday party!

task#19 - the sperm donor jawn

2005-01-14T15:48:00.000-05:00

the sperm donor is FL, and his chronicles are here, as well as here, and also here. And this is how we got to where we are now. So, December 30th 2004 - I ain't studying his a$$. F&ck 'im - I gotta keep it moving. Then folks inspire me with their 101, and I gotta fill up all those tasks...If you don't know what this is, take a look. The thing is - that list is organic, and has a life of

how to lose visitation...

2005-01-13T21:49:00.000-05:00

so, I've been furiously working on #19, and I've made some progress. But before I can update you on how I'm managing to get the sperm donor to see his son, I have to tell you real quick how he came to not seeing his son. And if you're not familiar with what a piece of work this dude is, you can read all about the sperm donor's exploit's right here. Now I don't want to paint a

zen and Q, the Art of Work

2005-01-10T21:35:00.000-05:00

I'm prepping for the move, so I'm cleaning - and I came across some pins that I earned at work. One year of service, Employee of the Month, Company anniversary, that sort of thing. I typically acknowlege all of these with the same thought: "hmph...they could've saved some scratch, and given us all bigger raises...". So last week, my old project manager (who can barely purse his lips together

weekend update - 1/10/05

2005-01-10T15:29:00.000-05:00

Courtesy of Bakers Dozen c/o KB via ej. ...in no particular order... I met the Artist, Redux. Intelligent, funny, sexy, etc..etc. which forced me to... redo the List - still 101, but there's been a slight change I'm workin out y'all - and I'm hating the treadmill, recumbent bike AND the sidewalk I'm eating healthy y'all - and I have the heartburn & gas to prove it 8+ glasses/day = one pissy

the list, revisited

2005-01-09T10:26:00.000-05:00

okokok, so I was bitter and pissy, and this one was more than a little unrealistic: 9. take a 365-day break from dating as, EJ so casually yet accurately pointed out to me "yeah, when you stop looking, that's normally when people come out of the woodwork...". So, along with having some remarkable conversations with The Artist II(the remix), I went on another date with the Computer Geek. A

steppin out on faith...

2005-01-07T09:33:00.000-05:00

So, I found the house I want, and I'm working with a lender to secure the financing. I terminated my lease today (ends 2/28/05), and I'm working on a backup habitation plan just in case this whole thing doesn't work the way I planned. I'm terrified. Period. Someone send me a virtual hug & tell me it's gonna be alright, y'all heard? I sorely need it. ...I always hated that stupid phrase...

why I love black men...

2005-01-06T11:19:00.000-05:00

So, of course since I decided to give up dating, guys are crawling out of the woodwork (allegedly), to get at me. I'm sticking to my guns. But in case you're wondering why I'm giving up not just the nookie, but the dates as well, here's your answer. I love black men. I've said this before, but I'll say it again. Love them. Love the way they talk, the way they walk, they way they smell, the

vacation update

2005-01-03T22:15:00.000-05:00

the weekend vacation update: yes, I've been too lazy to post, so you get a consolidated 2 fer this week ;-) Bakers Dozen c/o KB via ej. more househunting, found the dreamhouse, and my budget left me wanting. Maybe next time. X-MAS: cooked too much, ate too much, slept too little. Family good cheer abounded. met 3 "good catches" (their words) online, who (being the gentlemen that they were)

the last 4 a$$holes of 2004

2005-01-03T20:30:00.000-05:00

Ah, we never tire of dating drama, and online dating services seem to have an ample supply of it. Without further ado: A$$hole Number 1 - The Pic Stealer:: found on Yahoo, after I perused his profile, "I'd describe myself as simple, but elegant; soft-spoken, but out-spoken; direct, but romantic; gregarious, but discerning; selectively eloquent; blah...blah...blah", I decided to look at his pics

101 tasks in 1001 days

2005-01-01T10:23:00.000-05:00

Aight, I've seen this on Karsh's page, and then EJ & I talked about it. Sounds more painful AND rewarding than a New Year's resolution, and who am I to pass up rewarding pain? The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days. The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (i.e. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be

then you gotta Breathe...

2005-01-01T01:30:00.000-05:00

oh yeah - first off - Happy Friggin New Year!!! Aight, now that I got that out, I gotta few things to share with a few folks. And FYI, I gotta bottle of Korbel lubricating the er - sharing, if ya know what I mean. So this is an idea I got from Fave, who got it from xquizzyt1, who got it from Fran, but I also saw it on Elle's page and so on...and so on... I opened up my heart to you, something

mini-hiatus

2004-12-29T13:37:00.000-05:00

Ah yes, I haven't posted for an incredibly lofty, esoteric reason: Ok, I'm just a lazy ass. I'm on vacation, and frankly typing makes me tired. So, no Weekend updates, no memes - hell, I may not even do a 2004 recap, or best of before we ring in the new year. I'm just too trifling. Me is chillin', Hammy is chillin', what more can I say, top-billin'...that's what we get... aight, enuff - my

Merry Christmas

2004-12-25T10:19:00.000-05:00

Yes Virginia - there is some Christmas cheer...the combination of nutmeg, thyme and freshly cut wrapping paper did it...lol. Merry Christmas y'all!!!

pre-X-Mas Blues

2004-12-23T20:04:00.000-05:00

The holidays are always a hard time for me. I started not to post this, but someone reminded me - I don't write for my audience, I write for me. And I need to get this out. Log off now if you don't want to share my sadness... My son was involved in a car accident involving a drunk driver. He's fine, and the other passengers are fine as well. The other driver was caught after they also

weekend trip to Snarkville...

2004-12-20T10:18:00.000-05:00

Yes, I got my Scrooge on. And your point is...? No really - I was not fit for human consumption the entire weekend...the Bakers Dozen c/o ej. Vegetate with Hammy, and watch Finding Nemo for the gazillionth time. Insomnia & the convo with Mr. Earning Potential. Synopsis: not only is chivalry dead, but it took romance out with it... I decide that my lovelife needs a colonic. Saturday::

the anti-dating rant

2004-12-18T19:51:00.000-05:00

Now that I've had a few hours sleep, and a little time to mull over the convo with Mr. Earning Potential, I'm pissed. Like my sista-blogger Elle stated a few weeks ago, I've gotta agree - 2004 has been a banner year for a$$holes. A coworker suggested that any man over 35, that's never been married probably has a good reason to not marry - the type of reason most women would run from. I'm

insomnia & the anti-dating moan

2004-12-18T03:47:00.000-05:00

I'm seriously thinking about giving up dating in the new year, and this is just one example of why...sorry, but i didn't want to edit anything this guy wrote - long post... golfdude (2:22:18 AM): hi saga_30311 (2:22:23 AM): hey golfdude (2:22:41 AM): u up pretty late... saga_30311 (2:22:54 AM): so r u golfdude (2:23:00 AM): yeah...nite owl saga_30311 (2:23:46 AM): insomnia? golfdude (2:24:07 AM)

Pay it Forward

2004-12-15T09:58:00.000-05:00

Before I even begin, let me state for the record that This jem is not mine. I subscribe to this newsletter, Atlanta Lowdown, which will eventually also be found here and one of their writers, Kinetic wrote this, and it touched my heart. Haven't seen the movie, but the idea is moving, IMHO. If you're also feeling it - let Kinetic know. Here are Kinetic's thoughts (with his permission) about

the weekend, chaotic

2004-12-13T14:06:00.000-05:00

no, not that kinda chaos - my daughter silly - what were u thinking? From kb's Bakers Dozen c/o ej. anti-studied:: in anticipation of my remaining final, I watched reruns of Law & Order, and reality shows. I even squeezed in an episode of Drawn Together, which is almost illegal to watch - it's so hilariously un-PC. No cracking of books, no reviewing of notes. If I got an F, I surely

saga, cubed?

2004-12-11T07:08:00.000-05:00

saga cubed is a scary thang. Thanks to, lesseee: Trinity -> KB -> EJ / ToddKelley / Honey ...so barring the threat of death, here goes: Three names you go by: Ms. L_______ (y'all ain't getting the last name) L______ (yes, my initials are LL, but y'all ain't getting the first name either) mommy Three screennames you have: saga*30311 (insert either _, - or nothing for *) debaucherie (she's

making a list...

2004-12-10T01:32:00.000-05:00

Yanno, normally I don't have a prob picking out unusual, unchosen yet ultimately completely desirable gifts for my loved ones, as well as giving them some choices for me as well. However, with the house hunt fully engulfing my brain, I'm having trouble. Hammy has more toys than I can adequately pick up on the reg, the Chaos is grown, outta the house, and piling her own chips - so she can't pick

one final down...

2004-12-07T22:55:00.000-05:00

legal final was tonight - and it was thorough. My favorite class to date, and it kicked my a$$... am too wiped out to type...afjkapp afnakru9230qnf...... be back lata.... oh, and someone needs to send a sista some flowers...candy...liquor...smell-good...SUMTHING for knockin' that 9 page sucka out the box: saga at Yahoo (dot) com

the weekend update: 12-6

2004-12-06T10:38:00.000-05:00

From KB's Bakers Dozen c/o ej. played hooky on Friday:: Frankly, being a single mom of a disabled child has those moments of excruciating stress - accompanied by the similarly leveled headache. I worked on school-related projects instead... skipped class:: I'm also over the grad school lust. I know I've whined about this before, but this problem is spiraling at this point. I'm just feeling

how saga (went about) getting her groove back...

2004-12-05T21:02:00.000-05:00

lame title - but semi-apt. warning: long post ok, so since Mia did it, and Diva did it, I'm trying to be open to online dating, again. So I updated/added profiles to blackpeoplemeet.com, blacksinglesconnection.com, etc. I like BPM, because it lets you seach all over the world, and frankly I don't think I'm gonna find a sympatico in GA. So, outta the blue I get these IM's from this dude. 27

the Atlanta Black Bloggers Meet...

2004-12-03T16:44:00.000-05:00

ok, so I MEANT to post this, I dunno - 2 WEEKS AGO???? sheesh, I swear grad school is eroding my brain matter... So, we're having a meet-up of the Atlanta Black Bloggers...(anyone is welcome...this originated from awesomebod's similarly named mailing list....) Here's the information (pic's linked, but it may/may not work):: Black Bloggers Meet-up From: saga_30311 Location: Javaology 466

horizontal sweat...

2004-12-02T18:43:00.000-05:00

i hesitated to write this in the wake of World Aids Day ..but after considering this repeatedly, thought it was more than appropriate... two bodies, intertwined, wet with sweat, chocolatey skin against chocolatey skin, rubbing, grinding, stroking, glistening against candlelight, no delineation between where one ends, and the other begins... a sista is horny, yes. but also hungry for something

World Aids Day, 2004

2004-12-01T11:31:00.000-05:00

I would've loved to write my own personal story about this subject, but frankly I don't have one. However, the people listed below all do. Their stories are brave, touching, full of fire, and very important. Take a second & read one (actually, read several). Then ask yourself, what are you going to do. Maurice Cherry's World AIDS Day. BGB's Link, And Think. And Rethink. Bejata's Women,

the hip-hop jawn...

2004-11-30T13:51:00.000-05:00

this one's for ej ...yeah, I also used to love her... "I met this girl, when I was ten years old And what I loved most she had so much soul She was old school, when I was just a shorty Never knew throughout my life she would be there for me..." but nah, we not gon do that again...Sanaa did it so well, there's no reason to revisit that (y'all know that's my favorite movie of all time)... so, in

the long weekend baker's dozen

2004-11-29T01:11:00.000-05:00

I'm putting it in early y'all - you know anytime there's a holiday, the Monday workday ends up being dumb long... from l to r:: C.H.A.D., Hammy, the Truth, the Chaos (on the floor), "E" and lil ole me in pink. Yes, my camera is bootleg, and the pic is blurry - I know. the long weekend baker's dozen - from KB's Baker's Dozen Wednesday - The gig gives us a "Get Outta Jail Early" card, so I'm home

The Thanksgiving jawn - Questions, NE1?

2004-11-23T18:25:00.000-05:00

So, it's Turkey time! I don't know about y'all, but I am SO looking forward to entering a tryptophan-induced coma I'm beside myself. So in honor of the upcoming holiday - Questions, Courtesy of Chick Chat: Thanksgiving... Is It Really All About The Bird?: Er, it's 50% bird, 40% side dishes, and 10% dessert. Plain Mashed Potato's or With Gravy?: taters, smaters - give me the dressing, moist,

weekend update - the baker's dozen

2004-11-22T20:32:00.000-05:00

Baker's Dozen: a golden weekend. From KB's Bakers Dozen. SG b-day jumpoff @ Churchill Grounds:: perfect 4 the cigar & cognac crowd, and a very nice start, where Mia & I met... Z, the jr arms dealer::ok, he says he's a pedicatrician, but he's all of 22. Yeah, right. the Black Amex?:: another attendee spots the legendary Centurion when Z, and his boys Z & Ali buy us a double-round. So Z,

that moment

2004-11-18T20:01:00.000-05:00

If I had Known That it would Be the ending of Our friendship and not The beginning of something else I would never have should never have acquiesced and I wish I could take it back but I can’t can I ?

the grad school mood is...

2004-11-16T20:10:00.000-05:00

tired. period. I mean, I know I'm the last of a dying breed - a programmer. If you believe the reports, the days of the U.S. programmer are numbered. So the MBA plan:: combine the IT skills, my management experience - do some consulting work, leverage both into project management position. You get the drill. I've lost the lust for school, though. The candle isn't just burned at both ends -

weekend update

2004-11-15T19:00:00.000-05:00

I ripped this from Off Cloud 9 - Karsh's blog - thanx Karsh for the inspiration. So, here's the rundown (can I come up with 12? sheesh...) Sale at LB, so I polished off the Churchill Grounds outfit for Friday, and also managed to sweat out my press during work. 1/2 fro, 1/2 press is not a hot look for me. Another class bites the dust. The Marketing class, of the gold stars & bonus points for

about that guillotine...

2004-11-12T19:38:00.000-05:00

Ok, so I gave y'all the setup, but just in case ya missed it - work, the intro. There was a reason why I used this phrase: pulled out the guillotine and cut the head off a long-time-but-not-yet-qualified-for-retirement-benefits employee. That employee called me this evening. The situation: I work in an IT department, consisting of mainly Programmers, Quality Assurance Analysts, Business

SG's BACK!

2004-11-11T11:08:00.000-05:00

Have you ever cleaned out your closet, and found a gem that you'd overlooked for a long time? I did - found a teal twin sweater set that I haven't worn in 2+ years, that matched this TIGHT brown tweed suit I have perfectly. Ok, I am SO not digressing - my life-philosophy is of the Fashion existentialist: "I dress my a$$ off, therefore I am. So, there are a lot of fashion references - sue me.

On work - the intro

2004-11-09T20:00:00.000-05:00

I have hesitated for months about posting about work, because honestly - I ain't trying to go out like Michael Hanson & the Microsoft jawn. I'm thinking Microsoft is a misnomer. And not that work defines me, but we spend SO much time there, and exert So much energy to collect them checks...how can I not occasionally post about it? So, here's the intro - and here's hoping that my employer (who

mid-life crisis?

2004-11-07T18:15:00.000-05:00

I wanted to drop something real hot/profound about the election, the political process, the hypocrisy ingrained in American culture, classism v. racism, etc. However, I'm feeling rather self-involved of late. I feel like a monster. I've been feeling fat and ugly lately. Like I hate looking in the mirror. Not feeling my hair, not feeling my face, not feeling the wardrobe, nuttin. After

BS Line of The Week

2004-11-02T20:56:00.000-05:00

Note: I like My 100 Things so much, I intentionally left it up for a long time. I'm gonna have to redesign this jawn, to add that as a permanent link. In any event... School is kicking my a$$ - for real. I'm fairly intelligent, and between the exhaustive reading/research, and papers - I'm baked. Brain is fried, and I'm having trouble remembering anything short term. Er, what was this post

100 things that are good to know about me...

2004-10-22T18:54:00.000-04:00

I have nappy hair, which I have a love/hate relationship with. I'm obsessed with shoes. Seriously obsessed. I'm a very sensual person. That does NOT mean that you can get in. I overanalyze everything. I hate the smell of seafood, so I only eat seafood I can't smell. I'm an overly agressive driver. I cruise at 90mph, tailgate, cut people off, flash my brights, and suffer from traffic

golden kind of day

2004-10-17T21:02:00.000-04:00

blissful weekend:: wrap up my final in Business Analysis. Loved the class, but it was challenging. pick up my son from the sitter, and off we go... target, one of my favorite stores...gather some storage needs...clean & detail my truck (even yanked them seats up)...bro offers to wash the truck for $7 + water, so I give him $10 (rims was nashy wit brake dust), and he even hits my tires with a

the rules of having a maintenance dude...

2004-10-15T19:30:00.000-04:00

the rules:: You do not talk about the maintenance dude. You DO NOT talk about the maintenance dude. When someone goes limp or says stop, the f$#@'ing is over. Only two people to a f$#@. One f$#@ at a time. No shirt, no shoes. f$#@s go on for as long as they have to. If this is your first visit to the maintenance dude, you have to f$#@! sorry sistas, I don't know why I had to, but I had

thought-collage...

2004-10-14T21:28:00.000-04:00

aight, question for ya? when i'm blogstipated, is it better to combine blogs, or post repeatedly? well - this one will be a thought-collage... lovelife:: the balls seemed to have adjusted themselves for a change. The Artist proved himself to be just as self-centered, self-pitying and flighty as the stereotype predicts. The Lover disappeared, and stopped returning my calls (bro, if you met

the kind of drunk I want to get on...

2004-10-06T15:05:00.000-04:00

I'd like to float in a sensory deprivation tank filled with Everclear®-infused Lime Jello®, long enough to see whether I could get drunk from absorbing the alcohol through my pores, and what kind of hallucinations would result from it. Please don't ask - I have no idea where this thought, which is impaled on my brain stem, came from.

enuff

2004-10-03T21:15:00.000-04:00

I found my sensuality between the cushions of my couch Along with a quarter, a dime, a penny Some cookie crumbs, and a black HotWheels Firebird with flames on its hood… I found it at 3am, eyes half-closed A rerun of 8 Mile on Starz I brushed my hand against it while lying on the couch And it wasn’t in the whisper of some sepia toned brother Vocalizing his amazement at the deliciousness Of my

(not so) random surfing has it's rewards...

2004-09-30T20:17:00.000-04:00

ok, so between grad school, and the tail-end of a development cycle, I've been hemmed up for a sec. no time for deep thoughts - got stuff I need to get out. it pays to surf:: taking a break from studying, I started looking online for information about how to obtain a carry-permit for a handgun in GA. So here's how it went: Yahoo -> Clayton County (GA) Sheriff's homepage -> Clayton Cty's

balance

2004-09-19T13:18:00.000-04:00

I was chatting with a friend of mine, about this dilemna that I've been confronted with repeatedly over the last few years. The gist of it (without the gory details) is that I'm a nurturing person (according to the friend), which draws people to me, especially people with problems. The friend gently assured me, that I'm not wrong for wanting to distance myself from these people. That my wanting

The Musketeer

2004-09-16T22:56:00.000-04:00

Category IV - TheMusketeer You have a small, highly edited social group, andyou like it that way. What Type of Social Entity are You? brought to you by Quizilla

why I'm driven

2004-09-14T23:25:00.000-04:00

Not to engage in the pursuit of ideas is to live like ants instead of like men. ~fortune cookie, but Originally Mortimer Adler It's more than the $ (I really don't make that much), more than the stuff the $ buys...it's the growth, and the challenges the growth presents. Knowing that, continually acknowledging that, I can endure the pain that comes with the growth.

More than we could ever ask for...

2004-09-13T14:49:00.000-04:00

I considered starting a new blog, for spiritual posts. But I have enuff trouble maintaining this one lil 'ole blog. Besides, my spirituality means a great deal to me, it should be an integral part of my life, so why not incorporate it into my daily blog? Note:: these spiritual posts prolly won't be daily. I'm trying to get better about my talks with God, but that doesn't mean I'll always

the age of mediocrity

2004-09-11T13:35:00.000-04:00

Yes, I'm a new MBA student. Yes, I'm an African-American Woman. No, the two ideas DON'T conflict with each other. This is one of my professors: Alok Srivastava, Ph.D. He teaches Business Analysis, Decision Science, and some other classes. However, he's got this quote that he uses - I don't know if this is his, or he's quoting someone else (I'll check & post later), but I love it: The 20th

embracing positivity

2004-09-09T16:43:00.000-04:00

I'm taking a short blog break. My head has been immersed in negativity lately, and I feel like by writing about it, I'm feeding it - creating more negativity, so more negativity is coming my way. My logic may be faulty, but if I need to change my mental state to stop focusing on the negative, this works for me. Confused? Ok, you can always look here - Rant - I revisited this ExAcT same

rinsing my balls in the sink, NOT!!!

2004-09-08T16:35:00.000-04:00

ok, I just used that as the title to get your attention, and as a homage to a friends blog: Rinsing My Balls in the Sink I'm not really rinsing my balls - I don't have any. OK, let me just get to the point. I broke up with JC. Permanently. I'm SO not ok with that at the moment. My heart hurts. My brain knows that it will get better. That's all I want to say about that. As for my other

a day in the (real) life...

2004-09-01T21:55:00.001-04:00

for those of you not well versed by now, the fantasy version of this page is here: a day in the life. The reality follows... 5:00am:: The alarm goes off. I'm supposed to get up, to get my workout on, but I'm too tired, so I turn the tv on, and turn it off, then roll over and try to snooze, while keeping one ear open for the newscaster to say... 6:00am:: I get up, and try to get in a quick

the perfect shoe

2004-09-01T10:06:00.000-04:00

I'm looking for this shoe. This perfect shoe. The shoe that will match the perfect outfit. The outfit that will perfectly adorn me. See, I've been looking for this shoe for a long time, and I've accumulated quite a few shoes in my search for this shoe. I think I found it. Thing is, I'm not sure. I haven't tried this shoe on, and it doesn't match anything in my wardrobe. Sure, I feel like

the crossroads

2004-08-26T10:03:00.000-04:00

I'm having man-trouble, again. This time though, it's a problem of saturation & quality. Too many men, of questionable calibre, and not enough time. The Artist: true to form, he's attempting to sweep me off my feet, shower me with presents, sensuality & creativity, while being unpredictable, moody, needy and unstable. AND he keeps really odd hours. With me starting grad school this week -

purple

2004-08-18T23:34:00.000-04:00

purple My breasts betray my mouth’s lie, And in his bed I lie Rational ize -ing The passion in his hazel eye His lovelust for me, at once ancient, and fleeting I, his faithful concubine My logic defeating his endeavors to become my liege, my voodoo priest He brings me rose incense, Sandlewood, Creating my brew, with leaves from a carob tree He tickles my nipples with his locs, And uses

sacrificing on the altar of beauty (again)

2004-08-17T18:41:00.000-04:00

Guys, this is really a SHALLOW, feminine topic kinda post - and more of a reference for any woman thinking about this cosmetic procedure - so feel free to click off (ESPECIALLY if we're dating)...lol So, I have to start off admitting something... I'm hairy I've had facial hair ever since I was 17 years old, and have tried just about all removal methods: Nair, bleaching (not

humanity

2004-08-12T22:23:00.000-04:00

excuse me, but i was wondering if you’d let my humanity, touch your humanity if we could meet and let our souls intertwine for one brief, blisteringly shining moment may i, let down my guard, and reveal my essence will you, in turn, show me, why you smile my life in a world that is brief, hard, dry, sharp, and bitter filled with fullness, packed with distractions gradually, and at once, so busy

the explanation follows

2004-08-10T10:19:00.000-04:00

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa yes, it's been a while since I posted - and I'm blogstipated again. note: there's nothing really wrong - that's a combo yawn/scream. ok, so I guess I should explain why: windows XP caused my laptop to die. literally. I managed to bring it back to life, but not until many conversations (arguments) with HP technical non-support.

on brothas, rape, and the question of money

2004-07-29T21:38:00.000-04:00

Ok, so here's a link to the original story, and a blurb from it: Popular Hollywood Actor Arrested For Memphis Sexual Assault: Actor Anthony Anderson, who starred in such films as "Scary Movie 3", "Barbershop", "Me, Myself and Irene" and the new movie "Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle" has been arrested in Memphis for aggravated rape. The affidavit says that on Tuesday, July 27, 2004, a woman

things to do before I turn 40, revisited

2004-07-24T20:28:00.000-04:00

So, I knocked another one off the list: The List:: Get a passport, and at least 1 stamp in it. Buy a house. Have a decadent, weekend fling in the Chicago LakeShore W hotel. Preferably with my future husband. Volunteer at least 8 hours/month for 6 months working with teenage AA girls. Take a cruise. Kick a$$ and take names in Madden 200X. Wear really tight black leather pants while kicking a$$ &

singing like there is no tomorrow...

2004-07-21T21:01:00.000-04:00

so I was feeling myself, right? Loving my hair, loving my outfit, loving the fact that it was 8am, and I was headed to `Buck's, for a nonfat Chai Latte, and a Cinnamon Walnut Coffee Cake. You couldn't wipe the Cheshire Cat grin off my face if you wanted to - and trust, you don't - I woulda cut you... So, on my way out of `Buck's, I'm singing the Kindred song that was playing on my CD player on

the thing I refuse to name

2004-07-18T20:37:00.000-04:00

I want so badly to put this thing down this longing that is at once enticing, and abhorrent it brings me nervous butterflies & tears as its offerings and seemingly asks only for my fealty in return this thing is tangible this longing palpable a lump in my throat, that I cannot swallow I'm choking on it its flavor a rancid memory of a love I once knew now sicked up, bitter and me torn between

ain't no party like a Hilfiger party, because a Hilfiger party don't stop...

2004-07-18T18:12:00.000-04:00

So, I'm watching "I Love the 90's" on VH1, because the fact that I have chores to do hasn't influenced my overindulgence in mindless TV all day today. I have JC on the brain for all the wrong reasons, and the only thing that has distracted me from that is mind-candy. So, in the "I Love 1994" episode, they went into this whole spiel on the Tommy Hilfiger phenomenon - you know: How one WASPy

a day in the life...

2004-07-13T20:22:00.000-04:00

I know plenty of people that torture viewers with this self-indulgent kind of fantasy...so I'll let you know UP FRONT that this is what it is - so you can click off now if you're not interested. Otherwise, here goes: 5:00am:: I rise, and kiss you (softly sleeping). Not wanting to wake you yet - I need some alone time, so I workout for 28 minutes - thinking of how to get through the rest of the

FL - the end?

2004-07-09T17:48:00.000-04:00

Again, if you need to know how this story started - Click Here for the Beginning and Click Here for the Middle Now, on to the end....? When you have a cut - as it begins to scab over, it itches (like crazy) as it heals. Then the scab forms, but the scab has to be removed in order for it to heal completely. It needs to be kept clean, and it also needs air and time. My scabs formed on my heart.

the FL story - the interim

2004-07-04T22:14:00.000-04:00

the end of this story is coming, but this - this is the meat of the thing...and in hindsight, I always look at life (and myself) as before, and after FL. I learned so many life lessons because of FL.If you need a recap, Click Here.So there I was, at the darkest, most depressing point in my life. Sick son, abusive fiance, no friends or family to bail me out, and no job so I could support myself.

how this leg of my journey began - the FL story

2004-07-01T18:02:00.000-04:00

ok - if you've ever read my blog before, I've alluded to FL several times, and promised to recount the FL tale. Well, I'm blogstipated again, and he called yesterday, so what better time to recount the story. This is a long one, but I have to tell it the way it happened...Once upon a time, not long ago, I was on my way to a club, freshly showered, made-up, and might I add - fierce. 100lbs

a pseudo-internet-dating-apology of sorts...

2004-06-28T09:06:00.000-04:00

this is for Vincent, Pete, Rickey, Eric, Ken, Mike, Greg and the myriad nameless others... I'm sorry for the misunderstanding, and misrepresentation - it wasn't intentional, and I'm not sure if there even was any. Let me explain. You saw my picture, my 'resume', my profile, on some webpage, and thought I was intriguing, appealing, attractive, witty or something along those lines. You contacted

meditations of a chick on a diet

2004-06-27T09:59:00.000-04:00

I want some grits. I want some grits, despite the "diet". Grits in and of themselves aren't bad for you. Skip the butter, and I'm fine - grits are fine. They'd taste better with the butter though. And some cheese eggs on the side, and maybe some bacon. Toast. Coffee. OK - you're trippin' - just have the grits. NONONONONO - you're fasting, you're not supposed to eat ANYTHING - cleansing

top XX ways to not get to know me...

2004-06-24T19:04:00.000-04:00

Yes, I'm on a list binge this week. The online dating jawn...I gotta admit, I have some real pet peeves. Here are a few: ways to make sure you can't get at me... misspell. even simple words. add a few grammatical errors and I'm sure to pass take your shirt off. 'specially if you have a chicken chest, or man breasts. proposition me with some sexual reference better yet, invite me to join you

things to do before I turn 40

2004-06-22T20:05:00.000-04:00

It's less than 22 months away, and it's a pretty formidable list. However, if I accomplish even a few - that's enough of an accomplishment for me. This is a start - I reserve the right to edit it as necessary and note that it's in no particular order. The List:: Get a passport, and at least 1 stamp in it. Buy a house. Have a decadent, weekend fling in the Chicago LakeShore W hotel. Preferably

my ideal space

2004-06-20T00:11:00.000-04:00

I was chatting with a brotha today, and our conversation (along with watching Deliver Us From Eva - which wasn't half bad), got me thinking about what I want from a man, from a long-tem relationship, and from my home. I'm looking for an honest, committed relationship with a brotha that will allow me to be tender and vulnerable when the world demands that I be strong a brotha who will embrace my

metamorphosis

2004-06-13T22:20:00.000-04:00

It's about time. It's about life. It's about growth (obviously). And it's about making the outer me, match the inner me. It's about wrapping this fabulous gift - because that's what I believe I am, a jewel...in a Tiffany setting, as opposed to the plain brown wrapper I'm currently wrapped in. I've been putting this off for a while - not excusing what I've physically become, but I've had

dating & sincerity

2004-06-08T20:59:00.000-04:00

I'm beginning to think it's a lost art. You say what you mean, and mean what you say. Your words have merit. Your word is your bond. Etc. Etc. My intent is to date again - JC is an afterthought (well, I do have to get some getback, don't I?), and I'm ready to move on. But, the game has changed, and I'm left struggling. All I want is to have some simple, honest, old-fashioned, uncomplicated

ch...ch…ch…ch…changes…

2004-06-02T22:13:00.000-04:00

I'm pruning ppl from my life again - by choice, and by circumstance. I finally let SG have my full wrath after a late night booty-call, and me having to explain to JC why the phone rang at 3am. The fact that SG referred to me as his "sis" one day, and would call me wanting some a$$ another, frustrated me more than I could stand. I had an idea of how shallow SG could be after some comments he

ego-surfing

2004-05-28T21:14:00.000-04:00

I was looking for the meaning of memage, and I came across my site in quite a few search engines, on an interracial dating site, and also found a comment very similar to one of my previous rants on another's blog. It was heady and disconcerting. I also found the word memage in a lot of other journals. Weird - I didn't find the term that common when I originally used it. In the process, I

the smuggies part 2.1 - I've been recruited...

2004-05-28T09:41:00.000-04:00

...ok, well technically, that's not true. It's more like assimilated. See, they really aren't recruiting. It's an exclusionary environment, so they'd rather you didn't join - the more exclusive it is, the more elite it is. Elitism is good. Oh, if you're not sure what a smuggy is, click here. However, Change, when it comes, cracks everything open...Dorothy Allison, O Magazine And I've gone

a whole year?

2004-05-27T21:52:00.000-04:00

I let it get away from me, didn't I? I'm (again) suffering from blogstipation, and it shows - this post will be unusually short considering what's happened in the last year. I'll catch up, but it will take me a few posts. A preview: another metamorphosis put some things behind me adding some new things in place and another round of Fibroid-o-rama the Smuggies are real...they're scary...and

2003-06-24T20:26:00.000-04:00

test

2003-06-02T21:44:00.000-04:00

Longing I didn’t ask for Prince Charming Didn’t want the Knight in shining armor To come sweeping down off his horse to rescue me Wasn’t taking a bite of nobody’s apple talking to a mirror for validation of my beauty trying to get dwarves to “pay my bills..pay my telephone bill…pay my automobile….then maybe we could chill…” my longing was for something realer, deeper… simpler… Sunday morning

2003-05-12T18:29:00.000-04:00

rant. why do i only blog when i'm unhappy? i suppose, misery loves company, eh? ah well, on to the rant... can i get some service? any service. a lil service, not a lot. not the going out of your way winning-type service, just some ordinary bottom-line, doing-what-you-said-you-were-going-to-do service? i took my son to his neurologist today. this is my second attempt at this visit, the

2003-05-12T13:43:00.000-04:00

it's over!!!! yeah..yeah..yeah!!!! semester's over, finally and i am ecstatic I got an A in Risk Management (knew this), Global Business (knew that), and Introduction to Corporate Finance - which was a complete, utter and pleasant surprise. Heck, I may take another Finance class after that shocker. As for summer school, not likely. I'm not up to it - between school, work, my fibroids,